I can’t see myself with men anymore because of my female best friend

She takes such good care of me. She goes to great lengths to make sure that I have everything that I need and that I am comfortable. I’ve been with men before, and I guess they’re okay. But I’ve never felt truly whole with them. I was always on edge for some reason I don’t know. But with my best friend, everything just feels so tender. When she’s around it’s like I can breathe much easier.

She told me she will remain loyal to me and that she doesn’t want anybody else. I want to do the same for her not because I am returning the favor, but because I just can’t see myself with other people anymore. Especially not with men idk why. It’s so strange. I don’t think I’m gay though and I don’t think she is either. But this friendship is so intense I feel like drowning sometimes but in such a very good way.

My other friend saw how my relationship works with my best friend and she said it was weird. Is it really? I don’t care to know anymore. I just want to devote myself to her the way she devotes herself to me.